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  A lot of taking control of my life started after Focus.  Before Focus seminar I had a pretty good idea of what I wanted to do, but I was really unsure and I kept letting my ship sink every now and then.  Once I graduated Focus the wheel of the ship was in my hands and I had to decide what I was going to do with it.   I had so many opportunities that opened up to me – it was great.  

I had the opportunity to go to Parent Child I and that was quite the experience.  I really took control of my ship there.  I showed my dad that I was steering in the right direction.   Once I had control over my ship, I went up for level four service status.   That is when my ship started slowly sinking.  I had five no votes my first time I went up.  I worked a little bit with the feedback and went up the next week.  I then had four no votes and a no vote from my therapist.  I felt my ship sinking.  I once again worked on the feedback and went up the next week.  I had a couple of people give me a no vote and I also had a no vote from my family rep this time.  That is when my ship sank pretty low in the water, and at the time I just wanted to let it just keep sinking.   Not getting level four this time really hit me.  I heard myself say the words “I want to give up”,  “I want to quit” and my life got out of control.  I realized my ship was sinking way too fast and I needed to do something about it.  I decided to take a couple of weeks and work with my problems and work with the feedback I had received.   One thing I  that has been helping me a lot, especially in steering my ship, is my support systems such as family and peers in the program.  They are a really good source.  Once I regained control of my ship, I started moving up from there.  It has been a long voyage, but it will all eventually pay off. 

Posted on February 12th, 2008 by admin
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