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“My purpose is to live my life through joy and inspiration while never backing down”. In these few words my purpose feels powerful yet simple, but when the world gets going around me, it can be easy to let complications and other people stand in my way as distractions and barriers. Staying focused on my purpose involves constant effort and consistent commitment. I am on track to graduate this month, June 2007 after 21 months in the program. This brings feelings of excitement and accomplishment. It has been a long, hard road, and now I have my whole life to look forward to. My purpose reminds me of this and the work I have done to get to this spot. At the same time, I know that I will never arrive. There are choices I must continue to make to produce these results. This is what never backing down means to me. I am sure of my values in life, so I know that I need to stand up for faith, integrity, purity, respect, and family.There will always be tough times in my life. God puts trials in my life to make me stronger. Reality is that it doesn’t help me to only focus on the good times of my past or my future. At this point especially, it is very tempting to focus on the fact that I am finally getting out of the program, and I don’t have to deal with the petty rules and the drama. All that does is detract from using the time that I have left here to my advantage. And really, in life, and when I am living at home as a graduate, I will still be living life with other annoying things coming along day by day, just maybe dressed differently.Change comes constantly, and life is what I make it. Over and over I have learned to keep this in mind and never stray from the basics. When I start to feel scattered, I know that more than likely there is something missing. When I need my purpose the most, it is the easiest time to avoid and start slacking on things like reading my scriptures or saying my contract. Setting my sights on a vision of my purpose helps me stay focused in my life.Joy is a part of my purpose and a positive way to live, let loose, have fun, be creative, and just feel happy. When I let depression get in the way, joy becomes completely clouded. Darkness sweeps over me. Depression is always going to come up in my life, but I have learned that I don’t have to give it my power. Instead of going straight to acting out on my control or perfection, I can let loose as a magical child. Tools I have learned and have come to put into practice, keep me strong.I feel that I have a lot of insight and while working on my faith, I have come to discover that when inspiration truly comes to me, it is based on emotion, not thought. I love to analyze things, but life is not all about being right and figuring things out. Inspiration is incredible, not only as a word but as a feeling, which brings me back to peace and seminars and support and example.My purpose holds me up to my potential and provides me with strength. It has always been inside of me and holds a very special meaning to me. I made a choice to take this purpose on. Living in alignment with my purpose gives me rewards of peace and personal power, knowing that my results are in my hands. This is not only worth it, but I deserve it! I am a courageous, loving, worthwhile and sparkling young woman.

Posted on January 22nd, 2008 by admin
Filed under: STUDENTS